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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

tried to make me go to therapy, i said no, no, no....

... well, yesterday I sad yes. (Not yes, yes, yes, because that might make you think I really, really liked the support group, if you get my drift.)

So yesterday I went to the group. Let me tell you how badly I did not want to go. I was totally terrified of going to this thing. I thought the group would be made up of Alpha Mom types who sneak xanax with their soy protein shakes. I thought me and my hippie hair and filthy mouth and no-makeup and jiggly belly and hiking boots would never fit in.

Guess what. I fit in just fine. I felt so normal there, which might sound bad. It's not that they were so crazy that I looked normal in comparison. It's that I finally spent some time around people who are like me, which makes me feel a little normal.

It's kind of hard to believe, but last night was my first interaction with people outside my family in probably a year or more. I know, right? You're like damn Ninja Mom. You gots problems. Yeah. Yeah I do. So what.

Anyway I was really nervous to go, and I almost turned around a couple times. When I got there, I had a hard time at first, but bless the nurse's heart. She had everyone else go first, as far as introductions, and I was so glad, because by the time I had heard all the stories, I could breathe a sigh of relief. I wasn't some kind of freak.

I wouldn't say that the support group helped any as far as the whole postpartum uglies, but it was really nice to be in the company of other moms for awhile. I think I will probably go to the next meeting, in two weeks. I don't know. Depends how crazy I get between now and then.


Tara said...

I am so glad you went! Of course it isn't going to make you a shiny, happy person (at least not the first meeting lol) but never underestimate the power of support!

Lisa said...

See, I think it did help you though! You realized that many other Moms are going through the same kinds of things as you! That's good, because it will help you let go of any guilt you may have and hopefully encourage you to keep trying to get help. I hope you go back. Good luck! It was really brave of you to follow through.

Jenni said...

Good for you, Ninja. I'm glad you are taking care of yoruself.

iMommy said...

Good for you!! That first step is the hardest.

It took me nearly two years to finally go to therapy for the PPD that I suffered from my first baby. By then, I was pregnant with my second.