First, I want to thank all of you that commented and emailed. It really means a lot to me. I was a little scared to post that... I mean, depression is so cliche, and who wants to read the blah blah ramblings of a mentally ill mother? (Apparently you all, because I had mad hits yesterday.)
Weaning the baby isn't possible right now, for myriad reasons, but mostly because he has mild swallowing issues that make bottlefeeding practically mpossible. Four had these issues too, except much worse, and suffered with Failure To Thrive (FTT.) The thought of switching to bottles scares me to death, because I know The Babe would end up with FTT, too.
I am feeling better today, so much better, in fact, that I've drawn up a game plan. This is a list of things I need to do to get better, in no particular order.
1. Start going to the postpartum depression support group at the hospital where The Babe was delivered.
2. Start going to yoga class, or if I can't afford it, get some yoga DVD's to do at home. (More strenuous exercise really aggravates my migraines.)
3. Try changing my diet, eliminating sweets and junk food. Okay maybe not just yet.
I swear to God there was a fourth.... oh well. Whatever.
So I am going to do these three things, and give it a really good effort for a month. Maybe six weeks. If I feel no better at all, I will try something different. Counseling, maybe, and looking into a med change. Tuesday's the day for the PPD support group, and I'm a little worried about it, because I have become so antisocial that I can barely function at the grocery store, let alone in a support group full of strangers. We'll see though.
And in the meantime I have another issue weighing on my mind, but I will write a separate post on that tonight.
Thanks again, Blogland. You guys are pretty cool. :-)
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