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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

The Birthday Discussion.

We have this conversation every day. At least four or five times a day.

Beastie: Birthday?

Me: Yes, your birthday's coming soon. You will be two!

Beastie: No, fwee.

Me: No, two.

Beastie: No, one.

Me: No, two.

Beastie: NO! Seven!

Me: Fine, seven.

Beastie: No, Ishie TWO.

And then we talk about the party....

Beastie: Gabba cake? Gabba cake? Gabba cake?

Me: Yes, I'll make you a Gabba cake.

Beastie: And I-Meem! (ice cream)

Me: Yes, and ice cream.

Beastie: I eat it! Nom nom nom! (as she "feeds" herself like a chipmunk.)

And then it all come back around....

Beastie: Ishie birthday, sevennnnn!

Me: No, two.

Beastie: No, five.

Me: No, two.

Beastie: No, fwee.

Me: No, two.

Beastie: No! SEVEN!

[sigh.]

Bye Bye Bingo

It has been a strange, stressful few weeks around here. Between being evicted, and then not being evicted, and then being evicted again, and then house hunting and all the stress that goes along with that, and now this.

Bingo is going to the pound today. Most likely he will be euthanized, and I don't even care. I'm sad only because EJ and Four will be devastated. They cried last night when I told them he had to go, but they seemed to understand.

Here's what happened. Now don't go all PETA on me, because if you were in this situation you would do the exact same thing.

So last night I was watching television, and Bingo was sitting in the living room, sort of between me and the tv. When he sits, he is about waist high on Beastie. She walked up to him, but wasn't really looking at him. She was looking at the tv, and she put her hand out on top of his head. She was not threatening in any manner. No part of her body language was threatening, she wasn't making eye contact, and she was being gentle.

Out of nowhere, Bingo made the most ferocious sound I've ever heard out of a domestic animal, and he bit her. Not just once, but all over the hands. He just came unglued and attacked.

Now while this is happening, I'm moving faster than I've ever moved in my life, and saying things I've never said before, and Beastie is screaming and crying, and the girls are in their beds crying because they know this is bad.

Let me just tell you this. Bingo is very, very lucky that I had nothing dangerous within reach, because I would have used it on him. It was like the mother animal side of me just came out and I wasn't even human. I was just a momma defending her cub. I've never felt like that before. It was like I just blacked out and went crazy. I could have very easily killed him in that moment and not felt a single shred of regret.

Beastie's hands are pretty seriously bitten. Bingo broke the skin in several places. The bites don't require stitches, and Bingo has had all his shots so I don't need to worry about rabies or anything. But this dog has got to go. Today. Because I cannot have a dangerous, unpredictable dog in my home.

I feel bad, because I've done everything I could for him. I had him neutered and got all his medical up to date, and I've been very consistent and patient with training. He seemed to be doing so good... but then he just snapped. Beastie will turn 2 in just a few weeks, and I am going to have 2 year olds in this house for a LONG time. The Babe will be 2 in just over a year, and the new baby will be 2 in just over 2 years. That's a lot of little children with lots of opportunities for more attacks.

I guess the part that makes me need to give him up is because the attack was completely unprovoked. Beastie was doing nothing to bother him. If it had been EJ or Four bugging him or something, I wouldn't feel this way, because they are old enough to know better. But he was just sitting there, and she just gently and calmly walked up to him and placed her hand on his head. There was nothing dominant or provoking in her behavior. She didn't even really walk up to him, it was more like she was walking and he happened to be in her path so she reached out to touch him.

To me, a dog that will attack like that - and it was really an attack, not a nip - is not safe around children. And I am going to be honest when I bring him to the pound. If they put him to sleep because of it, so be it. I would almost rather see him put down, because if he isn't, I think he could be very dangerous to another family.

The girls want me to get them a puppy, because I told them we'd never get an adult dog again. You just don't know what they've been through. So I told them if we ever got another dog again, it would have to be a puppy. And we'd have to do some serious research into breeds and maybe end up with like a Lab or something. Of course, being children, they decided that meant that as soon as Bingo was gone, we'd get a Lab puppy. Um, I don't think so. I have enough problems as it is without worrying about a stupid dog. One fat, easy going chihuhauha is enough for now, thank you.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Recession Hash

I came up with this recipe a few months ago, when my cupboards were bare and it was still a week till payday. I love it because it's so versatile - basically, just a bit of this and a pinch of that, and you've got recession hash.

Here's the way I make it. The kids love it this way, but remember, I have a big family so you will probably need to halve this recipe if you have fewer mouths to feed.

1 Tbs butter
1 small onion, diced fine
4 slices cooked bacon, chopped
3 cans sliced potatoes (or 4 large baked potatoes, cooled and sliced)
4 slices American cheese

Heat the butter in a large skillet. Add onion and bacon, cook until onion is translucent. Add potatoes, cook until potatoes are warm through and have crunchy bits on them. stirring as necessary. Place cheese over the potatoes and cover, then turn off heat. When the cheese is melted, mix it all up. It looks a mess but it's quite tasty.

You could substitute fake bacon, sausage, or any other protein you may have. It's good with leftover roast beef, chopped fine. You can add an egg for extra protein too. Asparagus is good in this also.

Here's how we eat this: I serve a big plop on each kid's plate, and then they have a green salad on the side (usually with oh-so-healthy thousand island dressing,) and for dessert they have as much mixed fruit as they desire. Today, for example, I drained a big can of pears, added a pint of washed blueberries, and threw some watermelon chunks in there. Maybe weird, but hey, whatever. So long as they're eating.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Not Moving (or, I think I saw the devil.)

We are not moving. Not right now, anyway, because the house that I just loved and adored and had to have, turned out to be not such a nice place after all.

Oh sure, it was cheap, and it was in a very nice area. But it had some major issues, three of which were the roof, the plumbing, and the electrical. All three were cobbled together and probably functional but certainly not up to code. And then there was the very obvious ganja growing operation in the garage, and the secret tunnel (did I tell you about the secret tunnel?) that led to an underground room where the previous occupants had been growing mushrooms. And I'm not talking about the yummy delicious portobella variety here folks.

None of that scared me off. I will tell you what scared me off, but you have to promise not to laugh or call me crazy. (You can think I'm crazy if you want, just don't tell me that.)

So. First I have to say this. I don't believe in the devil or anything like that. I believe in positive (good) and negative (bad) energy. I think these energies are powerful enough to manifest themselves into various incarnations of good and evil, but I don't believe in a devil surrounded by various lesser demons. And if I ever start acting like I do, you better come make sure I didn't raid that secret room.

When I first saw the house on Ryan Road (heretofore referred to as "the Ryan Road house,") I was absolutely, madly in love with it. It felt spiritual, in a way. I immediately envisioned medicine circles and herb gardens and shaded benches. It felt like it had been all made and laid out just for me. It was, in a word, perfect. I took tons of pictures and couldn't wait till the girls came back from their trip to Grandma's so I could bring them through it too.

The next day I showed the girls the pictures, and they seemed really excited too. So we went down to the house, all of us chattering excitedly about paint colors and the pros and cons of Berber carpet.

When we pulled in the driveway, everything was different. It was all wrong.

As I was getting the kids out of the car, I could swear someone was watching me from the loft balcony. I didn't look up, because that's foolish - no one could possibly be in there. The realtor locks were all in place, and there wasn't another entry.

We went in, and it really and truly felt like someone was there. This is a house with lots of nooks and crannies, and it felt like someone was lurking behind each one. I thought that if I turned around real quick, I'd see someone watching me from the staircase, or maybe peeking around the hall corner. It felt bad, really bad. It felt as though we were distinctly not welcome there.

The kids felt the same way, and were terrified to leave my side. They kept wanting to get out of the house, to go outside and check out the little shed that we thought we'd make into a chicken coop. I made The Hub stay near us as we showed them the rest of the house, because I felt like anytime, I'd come upon a vagrant or someone staying there.

We didn't find anyone, of course, but as we left, I again had that uncomfortable feeling of being watched. The girls fought and screamed and yelled and pulled hair the whole way home. EJ cried for no reason. And they both kept telling me they hated the house, they couldn't live there, and, my favorite, from Four : "They should just tear that piece of cwap down!"

I felt so weird when we got home. I was sad, because I had loved that house the day before, and it was like a totally different place. But I talked myself out of this feeling, chalking it up to the negative feelings I had brought to it myself - I had been feeling particularly unsettled that day. And it had been so perfect just 24 hours earlier. Houses don't just become haunted or negative or whatever overnight.

That night, we put in an offer on the house.

We decided to take another tour of the house a day or two later. I brought my dad, because I figured he could help me check everything out better. We hadn't hired an inspector because the house was so cheap that even if it needed $50K worth of work, it would still have more than $50K worth of equity built in.

Once again, when we pulled in the driveway, everything was wrong. Except this time, it felt bad, bad, bad. Not just weird, but downright evil. It distinctly felt as though we were absolutely not welcome in that house. It had been raining, and there were children's bare footprints all over the walk, which was really odd to me, considering that this house is probably an eighth of a mile from the nearest neighbor - way too far for someone with feet smaller than Beastie to walk. The house was no longer on the market because we had put an offer on it, so these footprints weren't from someone who brought their children when they came to see it. And the previous owners had had no children - so it wasn't them coming to visit. (And why would they? It's been almost two years since it was foreclosed on.)

We went in, but I didn't want to. I strongly felt that we had to leave, like, now. Everything looked the same as usual on the inside, except it was obvious that someone had been there. The cupboard doors were all open, and the toilets were closed (they had been open, with tape across them, due to winterization.) There were big homemade blinds in all the windows, and the last time we had been there, I had opened them, to show the girls how it looked when it full of natural light. This time, they were all closed, with the pull string wrapped very tightly around the little catch hooks. I kept hearing a radio somewhere in the house - always just behind me, and so quiet that you couldn't hear what was being said.

We went in the garage, and it felt even weirder than the house had. The door to the secret tunnel had been barricaded, and all the hoses that made up the intricate sprinkler system in the ganja room were torn down. Things were definitely not right.

My dad wanted to look around the property, but I sat in the car with the kids, who cried and fought like they had the last time. It seemed like an eternity, but finally he and The Hub came back, and talked a bunch more about fixing this and that an blah blah blah. I just wanted to leave. I felt like we had to get out of there now, like we had tested the negative energy for long enough. Have you ever felt the crackly air during a thunderstorm, where you can just feel the electricity buzzing around you? That's how it felt sitting in that driveway. It was almost like I couldn't breathe. We finally left and as we did, I turned around and looked at the house. You are going to think I'm nuts, but I know I saw a little child up on the balcony, watching us. It was fleeting and I can't say for sure that it wasn't my own imagination, but it was creepy as hell, and I told The Hub there was no way in hell we were buying that house.

He was mad. He loves that house. But I don't care - I can't live there. I told him that if he wants it so bad, he can go live there by himself, because I won't live there and neither will my children.



... So we're still looking for a place. Our budget is so small, if I told you, you'd laugh and laugh. But this is Michigan, and you can get a nice house for not a lot of coin here, if you know where to look and don't mind doing some work. And I know where to look, and I don't mind doing work. I know the perfect house will come to us. It has to.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Watch Your Words...

Some four legged creature in my house decided to have a crap in front of the back door. I didn't find it right away, but I knew it was there, and I walked around the house trying to find it, cursing the animals the whole way.

Beastie was following closely behind me, holding her nose, saying "Stinky! Poopies! Pee Cue! Pee Cue!"

And then we came upon the offensive mess, and she let go of her nose and yelled, "DOG SHIT!"

That's something to be proud of, right there.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Things.

Things I Like:
  • Trees
  • Chickens
  • Taking baths with babies
  • Being self sufficient
  • Old pictures
  • Fast food (I am a total McDonald's-aholic; my arteries hate me)
  • Fountains and other indoor water features
  • Crystals
  • The smell of the herb shop
  • Homeopathic medicine
  • Big wet baby kisses
  • Oatmeal

Things I don't like:

  • Sleep training (Ezzo, Ferber, etc.)
  • Changing dirty diapers
  • Eating chicken
  • Fevers
  • Hip Hop Harry
  • In-your-face religion
  • Dirty garage sales
  • People with a sense of entitlement
  • Circumcising unconsenting people (like babies)
  • Doctors, hospitals, and other know-it-alls who actually know very little
  • Uncompassionate people
  • Words that are right but look wrong, like uncompassionate